This might be more of a long rant and self pity-party
, but I've been struggling with this for a while and would appreciate any thoughts.
I've been trying to implement the system for 10 years now and have never once gotten it to work. I reread the book every few months and think THIS MAKES TOTAL SENSE and think I figured out whatever piece I was missing (oh I just wasn't clear/organized/whatever enough), and I spend hours upon hours getting my system all set up, and then 2-3 weeks later it's all just a mess again. And then I read articles like this one by Cal Newport and I think oh yes of course that's why it doesn't work it's not built for the type of work I do and I need something different. And then I try things like Agile Results or One Thing or whatever systems are more results-focused where you're limiting what you're doing to the most important and focusing a lot of time on that. And that works for a bit but then something is missing and then I come back to GTD and start the whole cycle again.
I've posted about my trouble identifying Next Actions before, but I think that is the main problem I have: both identifying them and then actually using those lists to decide what to work on. I love the idea of coming up with key physical things to move your projects forward and then organizing those on a list and just picking through them. But I have a REALLY hard time figuring out the Next Actions on 80% of my work and personal projects. While the project has a clear outcome (Finish this report, Get up to a certain fluency in Spanish, Redecorate my bedroom), I can rarely come up with a Next Action that makes me feel good about it and feel like it's in the system and I don't have to think about it again. It's like I force it and put SOMETHING down that maybe kind of works, but then I end up ignoring that and doing something completely different because that's what feels good at the time when thinking at the project-level. So for redecorating my bedroom, I might have a next action that's like "research dressers on this list of sites". That's definitely part of the process and in theory a good next action. But when I'm in the mood to do the work I ignore that and instead just lose myself in the process of looking at pinterest and coming up with a mood board and looking at articles on color schemes and a bunch of other stuff that never made it to my list. Which works out fine, because then the project is moved forward, but then I feel like my next actions lists are useless since I end up doing anything other than what's on them. It's like I want the structure but also want freedom, and GTD doesn't allow me both.
The only time Next Actions work for me is when it's super clear and simple. "Look up how to change voter registration address" - done, easy, did it in a few minutes. "Email this person about this thing" - done, easy, clear. But so many of my projects don't have these clear and simple processes. Or maybe they do and my mind just doesn't work like that. I end up working more out of the project level (e.g. Create an Evaluation Plan, ok cool I'll just work on that for an hour and see where I end up), which is kind of anti-GTD I think since you're supposed to think about your projects once a week and have these clear lists of things to work from that will move your projects forward, so I should have had whatever next action identified for Creating that Evaluation Plan. I end up having "work on project x" or "brainstorm ideas for project y" on my next action lists, which isn't clear enough as a next action and I ignore it for the simpler "email this person about this thing" tasks.
Then because I have this block about creating Next Actions I don't process as much as I should. My inboxes build up and I get overwhelmed, and then end up having to spend hours upon hours again getting it all back up to speed. And those hours upon hours I could have spend actually DOING, but somewhere in my mind I feel like I should have the system in place first.
I think where this really hurts me is in my personal projects. I'm great at work and even though I don't have this super organized structured system like GTD in place I get done what I need to get done. But I just got depressed because I was looking through an old Bullet Journal (tried that mess too), and have a lot of the same goals/projects listed now as I did a year and a half ago and I'm in the same place I was with no end in sight. GTD makes so much logical sense to me, but maybe it just doesn't apply to the way I really work and think, and I need more results-focused systems (identifying three outcomes for the year/month/week/day, focusing on only 2-3 projects at a time until they're DONE, structuring/scheduling my days instead of just working off next actions lists when I feel like it).
Am I just driving myself nuts trying to force this system into my life? Am I thinking about it too much? Is there some key thing I'm missing that will fix it all and make it work for me?

I've been trying to implement the system for 10 years now and have never once gotten it to work. I reread the book every few months and think THIS MAKES TOTAL SENSE and think I figured out whatever piece I was missing (oh I just wasn't clear/organized/whatever enough), and I spend hours upon hours getting my system all set up, and then 2-3 weeks later it's all just a mess again. And then I read articles like this one by Cal Newport and I think oh yes of course that's why it doesn't work it's not built for the type of work I do and I need something different. And then I try things like Agile Results or One Thing or whatever systems are more results-focused where you're limiting what you're doing to the most important and focusing a lot of time on that. And that works for a bit but then something is missing and then I come back to GTD and start the whole cycle again.
I've posted about my trouble identifying Next Actions before, but I think that is the main problem I have: both identifying them and then actually using those lists to decide what to work on. I love the idea of coming up with key physical things to move your projects forward and then organizing those on a list and just picking through them. But I have a REALLY hard time figuring out the Next Actions on 80% of my work and personal projects. While the project has a clear outcome (Finish this report, Get up to a certain fluency in Spanish, Redecorate my bedroom), I can rarely come up with a Next Action that makes me feel good about it and feel like it's in the system and I don't have to think about it again. It's like I force it and put SOMETHING down that maybe kind of works, but then I end up ignoring that and doing something completely different because that's what feels good at the time when thinking at the project-level. So for redecorating my bedroom, I might have a next action that's like "research dressers on this list of sites". That's definitely part of the process and in theory a good next action. But when I'm in the mood to do the work I ignore that and instead just lose myself in the process of looking at pinterest and coming up with a mood board and looking at articles on color schemes and a bunch of other stuff that never made it to my list. Which works out fine, because then the project is moved forward, but then I feel like my next actions lists are useless since I end up doing anything other than what's on them. It's like I want the structure but also want freedom, and GTD doesn't allow me both.
The only time Next Actions work for me is when it's super clear and simple. "Look up how to change voter registration address" - done, easy, did it in a few minutes. "Email this person about this thing" - done, easy, clear. But so many of my projects don't have these clear and simple processes. Or maybe they do and my mind just doesn't work like that. I end up working more out of the project level (e.g. Create an Evaluation Plan, ok cool I'll just work on that for an hour and see where I end up), which is kind of anti-GTD I think since you're supposed to think about your projects once a week and have these clear lists of things to work from that will move your projects forward, so I should have had whatever next action identified for Creating that Evaluation Plan. I end up having "work on project x" or "brainstorm ideas for project y" on my next action lists, which isn't clear enough as a next action and I ignore it for the simpler "email this person about this thing" tasks.
Then because I have this block about creating Next Actions I don't process as much as I should. My inboxes build up and I get overwhelmed, and then end up having to spend hours upon hours again getting it all back up to speed. And those hours upon hours I could have spend actually DOING, but somewhere in my mind I feel like I should have the system in place first.
I think where this really hurts me is in my personal projects. I'm great at work and even though I don't have this super organized structured system like GTD in place I get done what I need to get done. But I just got depressed because I was looking through an old Bullet Journal (tried that mess too), and have a lot of the same goals/projects listed now as I did a year and a half ago and I'm in the same place I was with no end in sight. GTD makes so much logical sense to me, but maybe it just doesn't apply to the way I really work and think, and I need more results-focused systems (identifying three outcomes for the year/month/week/day, focusing on only 2-3 projects at a time until they're DONE, structuring/scheduling my days instead of just working off next actions lists when I feel like it).
Am I just driving myself nuts trying to force this system into my life? Am I thinking about it too much? Is there some key thing I'm missing that will fix it all and make it work for me?